Bleh. I can’t stop thinking negative at this point.
it hurts. Knowing that a person that was once your entire world doesnt even acknowledge you anymore. Just scrolling down your call log of all the times you stayed up talking for hours, and as you scroll up they slowly just disappear. The cute memories. The long warm hugs. The play fights that…
this. but something tells me that it was just strong feelings, not really love. idk at this point.
Every single time I’m about to get over you,
something just keeps pulling me back. Something in my heart tells me not to move on because you made such an impact on my life.
but then again.. you left me, how could I just sit here and wait - for nothing?
You’ll never see this, who am I kidding..
THIS. THIS. FUCKING THIS.
That dream.
That fucking dream.
Why did you have to be in it? Especially since we don’t talk & pretty much excluded each other from our own lives? I felt like crying when I woke up. It reminded me of our good times.
I’m over you, but I’m not.
I’m telling you,
if these people switch out, I’m gonna go into a major anti-social depression phase. & I’ll stay like that until I switch or make friends.
venting: bad start to a bad day? yup.
A friend & I were talking this morning about stuff, & it led to the topic of him. I didn’t really mind talking about him, but it got to the point where I was upset. My friend was telling me things, & it made me feel even more insecure. I mean, things happened for a reason, & we talked about those reasons. But then my friend made it seem like those reasons were b.s. My friend said that she talked to someone else about it. For some reason, that made me really insecure & upset on the inside. I knew my friend couldn’t tell me, but I felt as if the conversation with the other person about me wasn’t such a pleasant one. *sigh* So more for keeping in touch with him.
adsfjadskfjd end vent.
this doesn’t even make any sense.
